Happy March! It's hard to believe that March is already here! It seems like our family was just getting ready for Jud and Melissa's wedding and all of the family was home for Christmas. We have had about 3 days of snow this winter. Today we are starting out with no snow, no rain, a good bit of wind and some sun.
I am feeling pretty good today. I have had some days that have made me struggle. I was able to get off my steroids. As much as I did not enjoy taking them it seemed to give me a little bit of energy. I hear that they last a while as they go through your body. I am watching different thinks take place. The red marks on my arms seem to be getting better. SLOWLY. Also my SWELLING! I am not as hungry and I seem to be sleeping better.
It looks like I go back over to Seattle for my scans to see what my brain is doing. I have had alot of reactions with my program from Dewayne. I just had my 4th injection on Tuesday. We will see what new things come up! I am not able to talk very good. We will see what the doctors tell me.
I would love your prayers. My big appt. and scans in Seattle is on March 14th with my MRI, Dr. Rockhill and Dr. Chamberline. Most likly some Lab tests. I have not been feeling good. My
reactions make me not able to see very well. I have had a tummy ache.
I love you all. I think I better sign off. I will let you know about the Seattle appointments.
Let's say you want more abundance of heart, happiness, positive relationships, money, and time. Draw the circle and, standing outside the circle, speak these startements out loud and throw them into the circle using your hands.
* I am grateful for my healthy body.
* I am experiencing my body as balanced and free of all disease.
* I am experiencing lots of energy and vitality.
* I am sleeping easily and I awake feeling refreshed and ready for a new day.
* I am thin and fit.
* I am grateful for the feelings of peace and well-being that abound in me.
* I am seeing the good in all of the events and details of my life.
* I am a positive person who enjoys the adventures of this life.
* I am creating more and more experiences that generate feelings of joy.
* I am attracting like-minded people with whom I love to interact.
* I am attracting people who are safe and respectful.
* I share myself easily and I am understood.
* I am experiencing my intimate relationships as blossoming and growing effortlessly.
* I am free of all debt.
* I am wealthy.
* I am successful.
* I am creating larger sums of money; money flows easily into my life.
* I am always flowing in more money than I am flowing out.
* I am comfortable with money, I spend it in integrity and have fun with it.
* I am generous in sharing my wealth because I always know there is plenty for others and me.
* I am experiencing that I have all the time I need.
* I move between the different activities of my day easily.
* I am always on time for my commitments.
* I am experiencing others as always on time for me.
* I flow easily within the structure of time in my day.
* I am grateful to be alive.
* I am creating more and more of what I want effortlessly.
* I am assisted by the powers and spirits of heaven. I ask for their help in all areas of my life. As I ask for what I want, they take care of orchestrating all the details and bring me what I have asked for. I am grateful for this powerful assistance.
Thank you, God, for assisting me in my creation. I appreciate all the spirits who are helping me experience the full measure of my creative powers.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Keeping my promise!
Good afternoon to everyone! We have had an usual winter. Not much snow or rain for that matter. Not even that cold. This week it has been around the 30 and 40's. Not bad for winter weather. We had a couple of days of snow. It was beautiful to watch and see it come down. The grandkids called Papa to see if they could come out to the house and snowmobile. Of course! We made some pizza and hot co. Had a great afternoon. The sun has been out a good part of the days and we have some wind but not too bad.
As far as my health I have been off and on. Today is a good day. I wish I could sleep. I get about 4 hours of sleep, interrputed. (My spelling is off so please read through it.) My biggest reaction to my treatment is I have sweats and then go to being cold. Also I have pain that go's across my forehead and on hope of my brain. The pain moves to the tumurs and in mean't to kill the cancer cells. It's what it's suppose to be doing so I am excited for that. I can certainly put up with pain to get well. I have one more week of steriods left. Calvin and I went to Seattle to see my doctors over there Jan. 11th. I think I may have told you. Had a good appt. They told me I didn't need to come back until March. That's a good report. They said my tumors are looking a tiny bit better, but I'm not over with them. I was not expecting to be. "Come on guys." They are not bearers of new news!
I feel in my heart that the Lord is blessing me so much. I could be so much worse. I am great! I continuely thank you for your prayers. What a wonderful blessing to belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I am so thankful that I was raised in the church as a child, that I knew what was right and wrong. I have been so blessed with great brothers and sisters and my parents. Calvin has been such a blessing even before I got this cancer. Also my children who continue to call and pray for me. The lessons we have learned together as a family has taught us all so much. It is not something we would choose but something to learn from. Our trials stengthen our hope, faith and reliance upon the Lord.
ON NEST BUILDING
Mud is not bad for nest building.
Mud and sticks
And a fallen feather or two will do
And require no reaching.
I could rest there, with my little ones,
Sound for the season, at least.
But---
If I may fly awhile---
If I may cut through a sunset going out
And a rainbow coming back,
Color upon color sealed in my eyes---
If I may have the unboundaried skies
For my study
Clouds, cities, rivers for my rooms
If I may search the centuries
For melody and meaning
If I may try the sun.
I shall come back
Bearing such beauties
Gleaned from God's and man's very best
I shall come filled.
And then-----
Oh, the nest that I can build!
I love you all,
Janae
As far as my health I have been off and on. Today is a good day. I wish I could sleep. I get about 4 hours of sleep, interrputed. (My spelling is off so please read through it.) My biggest reaction to my treatment is I have sweats and then go to being cold. Also I have pain that go's across my forehead and on hope of my brain. The pain moves to the tumurs and in mean't to kill the cancer cells. It's what it's suppose to be doing so I am excited for that. I can certainly put up with pain to get well. I have one more week of steriods left. Calvin and I went to Seattle to see my doctors over there Jan. 11th. I think I may have told you. Had a good appt. They told me I didn't need to come back until March. That's a good report. They said my tumors are looking a tiny bit better, but I'm not over with them. I was not expecting to be. "Come on guys." They are not bearers of new news!
I feel in my heart that the Lord is blessing me so much. I could be so much worse. I am great! I continuely thank you for your prayers. What a wonderful blessing to belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I am so thankful that I was raised in the church as a child, that I knew what was right and wrong. I have been so blessed with great brothers and sisters and my parents. Calvin has been such a blessing even before I got this cancer. Also my children who continue to call and pray for me. The lessons we have learned together as a family has taught us all so much. It is not something we would choose but something to learn from. Our trials stengthen our hope, faith and reliance upon the Lord.
ON NEST BUILDING
Mud is not bad for nest building.
Mud and sticks
And a fallen feather or two will do
And require no reaching.
I could rest there, with my little ones,
Sound for the season, at least.
But---
If I may fly awhile---
If I may cut through a sunset going out
And a rainbow coming back,
Color upon color sealed in my eyes---
If I may have the unboundaried skies
For my study
Clouds, cities, rivers for my rooms
If I may search the centuries
For melody and meaning
If I may try the sun.
I shall come back
Bearing such beauties
Gleaned from God's and man's very best
I shall come filled.
And then-----
Oh, the nest that I can build!
I love you all,
Janae
Friday, January 13, 2012
Happy New Year - 2012!
Good morning to all of you!
I know it's time for me to get on my blog. A new goal for 2012! I will be on once a month. I have wanted to write every week. December was full of Jud and Melissa's wedding, all our kids came home for it, of course and then Christmas came 2 days later. It was wonderful to have our house filled with "home."
My health has been up and down. New Year's Eve I was not feeling well. I could not talk. Calvin took me to the hospital. I was there almost 3 days. A great way to bring in the New Year. My nasty tumor, I have given the name "Charlie", had my brain inflamed everywhere and was causing it to bleed. My doctor in town was on call. He came up to the hospital, very concerned. He wanted to put us a helicopter and have brain surgury the next morning in SEATTLE. Calvin explained that we were doing some other treatments that was most likly causing my problems. He wasn't a fan of all this but that's alright. He wanted all the details. Calvin told him that it was not approved by the FDA. I told him that when you are fighting for your life you have to hit all the options. I don't think the medical doctors are use to or happy with people making their own decisions. They gave me 6 weeks. I just hit my 2 and half years last Wednesday.......thanks to our Heavenly Father. He has continued to bless and answer all our prayers.
Calvin and I went to Seattle to talk to Dr. Rockhill. He is the specialists over Radiation, Chemo. and my Gamma Knife. Dr. Chamberlin is the brain surgene. (I know all my spelling is not right, but this takes a while for me to type.) Dr. Chamberlin told me that he thought I was doing pretty good and no surgery now anyway. It would most likly give me a stroke or take away my speech and reading paths. They do the surgury while you are awake so you can answer their questions on what places they are cutting out are responding. We left Seattle happy and blessed to know it all well as good as expected. I am not a fan of steriods but see how they help. I was on a big dose for 11 days, down to 3 for 3 days and now on 2 a day. I will most likly stay on them off and on evey 2 weeks until the sweeling and bleeding in the scans are better. When they showed us the scans on Wednesday, I could not believe how clear my brain looked! It has very little white tumurs everywhere. I wanted to cry! It you do that, the doctors think you are in depression! Some days I am! Don"t go back for 2 months!!!!
No snow in Wenatchee. We need some! I have decided to keep my Christmas decorations up all year! They are alot of works for me to put up...expecially alone. They make me happy and fill my house up. What will everyone say now? I have very little company out here anyway so I think the noution of my craziness will not matter.
Time to get some laundry going. I thank you for all your cards, prayers that I continue to feel in my brain and heart. Also from those of you who deliver my oxygen water. Also my beautiful qoutes you leave in my living room with your visits. You are loved!
Oh, May My Soul Commune with Thee - Hymn
Oh, may my soul commune with thee
And find thy holy peace;
From worldly care and pain of fear,
Please bring me sweet release.
Oh, bless me when I worship thee
To keep my heart in tune,
That I may hear thy still, small voice,
And, thy sweet spirit find.
Lord, grant me thy abiding Love
And make my turmoil cease.
Oh, may my soul commune with thee
And find thy holy peace.
HAVE A WONDERFUL MONTH!
I know it's time for me to get on my blog. A new goal for 2012! I will be on once a month. I have wanted to write every week. December was full of Jud and Melissa's wedding, all our kids came home for it, of course and then Christmas came 2 days later. It was wonderful to have our house filled with "home."
My health has been up and down. New Year's Eve I was not feeling well. I could not talk. Calvin took me to the hospital. I was there almost 3 days. A great way to bring in the New Year. My nasty tumor, I have given the name "Charlie", had my brain inflamed everywhere and was causing it to bleed. My doctor in town was on call. He came up to the hospital, very concerned. He wanted to put us a helicopter and have brain surgury the next morning in SEATTLE. Calvin explained that we were doing some other treatments that was most likly causing my problems. He wasn't a fan of all this but that's alright. He wanted all the details. Calvin told him that it was not approved by the FDA. I told him that when you are fighting for your life you have to hit all the options. I don't think the medical doctors are use to or happy with people making their own decisions. They gave me 6 weeks. I just hit my 2 and half years last Wednesday.......thanks to our Heavenly Father. He has continued to bless and answer all our prayers.
Calvin and I went to Seattle to talk to Dr. Rockhill. He is the specialists over Radiation, Chemo. and my Gamma Knife. Dr. Chamberlin is the brain surgene. (I know all my spelling is not right, but this takes a while for me to type.) Dr. Chamberlin told me that he thought I was doing pretty good and no surgery now anyway. It would most likly give me a stroke or take away my speech and reading paths. They do the surgury while you are awake so you can answer their questions on what places they are cutting out are responding. We left Seattle happy and blessed to know it all well as good as expected. I am not a fan of steriods but see how they help. I was on a big dose for 11 days, down to 3 for 3 days and now on 2 a day. I will most likly stay on them off and on evey 2 weeks until the sweeling and bleeding in the scans are better. When they showed us the scans on Wednesday, I could not believe how clear my brain looked! It has very little white tumurs everywhere. I wanted to cry! It you do that, the doctors think you are in depression! Some days I am! Don"t go back for 2 months!!!!
No snow in Wenatchee. We need some! I have decided to keep my Christmas decorations up all year! They are alot of works for me to put up...expecially alone. They make me happy and fill my house up. What will everyone say now? I have very little company out here anyway so I think the noution of my craziness will not matter.
Time to get some laundry going. I thank you for all your cards, prayers that I continue to feel in my brain and heart. Also from those of you who deliver my oxygen water. Also my beautiful qoutes you leave in my living room with your visits. You are loved!
Oh, May My Soul Commune with Thee - Hymn
Oh, may my soul commune with thee
And find thy holy peace;
From worldly care and pain of fear,
Please bring me sweet release.
Oh, bless me when I worship thee
To keep my heart in tune,
That I may hear thy still, small voice,
And, thy sweet spirit find.
Lord, grant me thy abiding Love
And make my turmoil cease.
Oh, may my soul commune with thee
And find thy holy peace.
HAVE A WONDERFUL MONTH!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
A NEW TREATMENT!
Dear family and friends,
Last night I got on my computer and typed a long blog to you. Right before I sent it out my elbow hit the kep pad and took the whole thing out. I was so upset. This is the kind of stuff that gives me anxiety and doesn't help me sleep. I will warn you now I am having a hard time with making my typing and words go together. My mouth can speak it but I can't spell it right...so please sound it out or this will take me forever!
Calvin and I found a new man that has a wonderful treatment system. We went to Salt Lake and met wil him over 3 days. He has his PhD as a Chemist. He has 2 machines and also provides injections. He sent us home with his Ozone (oxygen) machine that I use 3 times a day. It is very important to have lots of oxygen. My diet is alot like I have been on previously. He told me that I had to be detoxed before we started so I spent all of last week doing that and going through colonics like I did when I was first diagnosed. He told me that no medication could be taken. They would interfere with the program, so I got off my seizure pills and my hormones. I was a little nervous. I feel so much better being off them. Calvin has been working in his office at home a little more to make sure I'm ok. I had 3 mini-seizures. Nothing very big. I am not driving right now...again but it is worth it to stop taking the pills and have faith. It makes me happy. Many of you I'm sure think I am crazy, but it gives me hope and motivation to have a new program and someone new to work with that is not going to look at radiation, chemo, gamma knife, or surgery. A new option and I am a believer in the program and also this man. I go on line to my "Back-office" and log in the results for the day. He calls me throughout the day. I need to keep trying new approaches to beat the cancer.
He has cured many people from not only cancer but many diseases. All this can be adminstered at home. Thank you for your prayers and love. I feel them daily. I'll try to update my blog more often as I get more energy.
I love you all!
A NEW DIMENSION TO FAITH
When some new pain pieces my life
Rebellion begins to cry,
"God knew this would come and He approved"
But wait, long ago - so did I.
Last night I got on my computer and typed a long blog to you. Right before I sent it out my elbow hit the kep pad and took the whole thing out. I was so upset. This is the kind of stuff that gives me anxiety and doesn't help me sleep. I will warn you now I am having a hard time with making my typing and words go together. My mouth can speak it but I can't spell it right...so please sound it out or this will take me forever!
Calvin and I found a new man that has a wonderful treatment system. We went to Salt Lake and met wil him over 3 days. He has his PhD as a Chemist. He has 2 machines and also provides injections. He sent us home with his Ozone (oxygen) machine that I use 3 times a day. It is very important to have lots of oxygen. My diet is alot like I have been on previously. He told me that I had to be detoxed before we started so I spent all of last week doing that and going through colonics like I did when I was first diagnosed. He told me that no medication could be taken. They would interfere with the program, so I got off my seizure pills and my hormones. I was a little nervous. I feel so much better being off them. Calvin has been working in his office at home a little more to make sure I'm ok. I had 3 mini-seizures. Nothing very big. I am not driving right now...again but it is worth it to stop taking the pills and have faith. It makes me happy. Many of you I'm sure think I am crazy, but it gives me hope and motivation to have a new program and someone new to work with that is not going to look at radiation, chemo, gamma knife, or surgery. A new option and I am a believer in the program and also this man. I go on line to my "Back-office" and log in the results for the day. He calls me throughout the day. I need to keep trying new approaches to beat the cancer.
He has cured many people from not only cancer but many diseases. All this can be adminstered at home. Thank you for your prayers and love. I feel them daily. I'll try to update my blog more often as I get more energy.
I love you all!
A NEW DIMENSION TO FAITH
When some new pain pieces my life
Rebellion begins to cry,
"God knew this would come and He approved"
But wait, long ago - so did I.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Good Evening!
Hello to many of our loved ones. My typing is off and so is my spelling as we go through this together. I don't dare leave this page cause I am not sure I can get back to it.
I had a third gamma knife that caused a lot of swell and they thought my tumurs were bleeding. I was having mini-sieziers again. They put me on steriods...not a good feeling but they have improved may moter skills. I go over to Seattle within the next 2 weeks to have another MRI, check the brain size and shape and then go from there.
I going to end this now because I want to write a ending for us to all think about.
I have realized an important thing to remember is that your thoughtsare always creating your reality. It's up to us to be in charge or our thoughts, and consciously create a reality that is fulfilly. The alternativeis a relity that is unconscious and haphazard. It's always our choice. Complement your affirmations by starting your day positively. When you wake up imagine your spiritual crew of angelic support is present in your room waiting to meet with with you. Ask for their assists....bring you ideas of what you want, help you connect with like-minded people, help you be aware of your importance. Set an intention to partner with the LORD in creating a wonderful life. It can happen quickly.
I love you all. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. Know that I am thinking of you.
I had a third gamma knife that caused a lot of swell and they thought my tumurs were bleeding. I was having mini-sieziers again. They put me on steriods...not a good feeling but they have improved may moter skills. I go over to Seattle within the next 2 weeks to have another MRI, check the brain size and shape and then go from there.
I going to end this now because I want to write a ending for us to all think about.
I have realized an important thing to remember is that your thoughtsare always creating your reality. It's up to us to be in charge or our thoughts, and consciously create a reality that is fulfilly. The alternativeis a relity that is unconscious and haphazard. It's always our choice. Complement your affirmations by starting your day positively. When you wake up imagine your spiritual crew of angelic support is present in your room waiting to meet with with you. Ask for their assists....bring you ideas of what you want, help you connect with like-minded people, help you be aware of your importance. Set an intention to partner with the LORD in creating a wonderful life. It can happen quickly.
I love you all. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. Know that I am thinking of you.
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