Hello to everyone! This is Janae. I really do write on this every morning around 3:00 a.m. when I should be asleep. I talk myself out of getting up becaz' I know that I will never get any rest. I do think of all of you and feel of your love and prayers for me and our family.

I am feeling great. I have been doing my program almost 5 weeks. My MRI has been moved up a day (Thursday) and results will be given me on Friday. We are starting a family/friends fast tomorrow, Wednesday at noon until Thursday morning at 10:00 a.m. All of you are welcome to join if you desire. I will let you know what I find out. I feel there will be some great changes even though it hasn't been a lot of time. In talking with Leona she said that no change is a good change becaz' that means we have stopped the growth. I will still continue on my program becaz' I feel so great. The only thing I am noticing is that throughout the end of my day as I get tired, talk too much....I struggle with my speech some. It makes me have to slow down and make my mouth move but it doesn't bother me. My family thinks its a good thing to have me a bit quiet. Imagine that!

Calvin and I went over to the temple on Saturday. What a wonderful place to spend the day, to receive answers and reassurance from our Heavenly Father.

I love the scripture in John 14:26-27
"But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your rememberance, whatsoever I have said unto you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

I feel so blessed to have been raised in the church as a child. To know that I have been born as a spirit child of God which makes us all spiritually brothers and sisters. I am so thankful to my parents who provided my earthly, mortal body for my spirit. I like my body. It has been a wonderful, hard-working vessel for me to accomplish many wonderful things in my life and become who I am. I even like my brian. It's mine! I know I have an opportunity to grow in faith and stengthen in my testimony through this expereince.

I was outside the other morning just finishing up my scripture reading. The sun was on the river. A beautiful morning as I comtemplated the magesty of God's handiwork in the creation. It made me stop and ask myself, "Where is heaven anyway?" Many years ago there was a song that was sung often throughout the church. We don't hear it hardly at all anymore. I went downstairs and dug up my music. I want to share the words with you as I sign off today.

WHERE IS HEAVEN?
I wish I could remember the days before my birth
And if I knew the Father before I came to earth.
In quiet moments when I'm all alone
I close my eyes and try to see my Heavenly home.

Where is Heaven? Is it very far?
I would like to know if it's beyond the brightest star.
Where is Heaven? Will you show the way?
I would like to learn and grow and go there someday.

I wish I could remember the Father's loving face
And all the friends and family that filled that holy place.
Was I a child there? Did I walk with God?
And was that where I learned about the Iron Rod?

Where is Heaven? Is it very far?
I would like to know if it's beyond the brightest star.
I've a feeling that it's not too far
When you're with the ones you love it's right where you are.

WHEN YOU'RE WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE IT'S RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE.

Heaven on earth is truly found around those that you love. Protect your home and families. Maintain a spirit of love so we can all recieve the blessings that our Heavenly Father truly desires to send our way if we seek, look and respond to. I love you all so very much. I am so thankful for family and friends and the gospel that constantly protects my heart in my fight to recover.

Looking forward to sharing my results with you on Friday.

Janae