The things I am learning!

Hello to everyone. This is Janae. Calvin is home and sharing his computer with me tonight. This is my chance to give my own update. I appreciate Bergen for filling in for me. I have not been ignoring you but am waiting for a new hard drive for my computer.

Bergen covered the procedures that are coming up for me this week. I qualifiy for it because the tumors in my head have not grown and also there are no new ones. The procedure involves radiation which is done from the outside of my head. Each of the larger tumors will be zapped with radiation individually for a certain amount of time. They find the procedure is about 85% successful. They don't know the details of the treatment until we have our consultation on Wednesday afternoon. The treatment procedure is Thursday morning. The following week I have a complete scan of my body to make sure there is no other source of cancer through the rest of my body. I believe the date is the 22nd. Then we will decide with the doctors where we go from there.

I want to share some things I am learning:

Do not make a plan when it involves cancer. Each day is new. I look back on our planned month of September. We had our trip to Snowbird cancelled, moved Judson's flight home from his mission into Wenatchee. I had radiation and chemotherapy to get my motor skills working better, etc....all keeps your faith moving forward. Still a good month to make better.

People have a hard time sharing computers. Everyone does everything on them now.

We apologize about things not necessary. We say "sorry" that we don't send a card or make a phone call. "I had planned to but didn't ....." No one knows your expecations for you and most don't expect them. Don't give yourself the guilt or the excuse. Life is so much better....enjoy!

Do the right thing at the right time even when it seems like something simple. It can make a huge difference.

We have a right to change our minds. I chose not to have radiation and chemo. but as I started to have some motor skills problems I told Calvin it is like anything in life. "If you keep doing the same thing, you get the same results." I had to change my mind even though I had planned on not having these treatments. It has helped me and was the right thing for me to do.

Tears make many people uncomfortable. Tears have many meanings. It can be a sharing of something sacred, special, happy or sad. There are many wonderful stories and thoughts shared through tears. Follow your heart!

Being physically "lean" is not from your workouts at the gym as much as it is from your nutrition.. We get all stressed out about our must-have-routine at the gym....many don't enjoy and drag themselves to it, delighted when they walk out. I have found that vegetables and fruit trim you right down in a very heathy way.

I don't know how to cut and paste on this computer so I will leave this like it is and get it mailed off to you.

On my first blog post I mentioned something about "the old Janae" and the "new Janae." I remember stating that I already could see the "new Janae" was going to be a new, improved version. I see it differently now. The "old Janae" is my tri-cycle, with training wheels and a foundation of who I am and where I am going. I am learning to add a bigger bike and eventually get back to my clip-on peddles. I'm glad you are taking this ride with me. Thanks for your continued prayers, love and faith.

St. John 16:33
"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Love to you all,
Janae